You’ll probably never read this but whenever this happens, I’m clueless and helpless as to what I can do.

1) You dont wanna control me with your feelings.
2) But if I don’t, you’ll be upset.

I don’t mind really, to do whatever it takes to gain back your trust because it was MY fault. SOLEY MINE. But I really don’t know what to do You’ll probably think I dont know how you feel but I do. I honestly do.
How hard it is for a trust to be gained back after you’ve put in so much into the relationship. Its been 1 Year 10 months+ and counting.. We try, try so hard. But we’re eventually still at the same situation whenever this happens.

Its not your fault, its mine. But what can I do?
Even if I try to take photos to prove that i’m not lying, it doesn’t help!
Thats just the way your mind works.
Just tell me please though you probably don’t have the answer too.
Honestly, everytime such things happen, i’ll think of the worst outcome. Because I know that whatever you told me previously, those promises you make will no longer be valid then.

It sets me thinking sometimes if I should really put my heart into believing in them. Then again, all these boils down to me. If I haven’t done that, this wouldn’t be happening. We’ll still be that happy couple every single day.

Like the saying goes. Get to the root of the problem and nib the bud. So if I’m the bud, should I be given up and removed?

Sigh.

OKAY LETS HOPE WE SEE TO IT THAT THE THINGS WE WANNA DO GETS STRIKED OUT!

Sighers. How?

Hey baby,

Its been almost one and a half year since we got together.
& its been a helluva journey with you.
We’ve been through so much together. All the tears that we shed, can feed a whole island! Nevertheless, its these quarrels and the verge of breaking up that makes me, makes us realise how much we love each other. How to appreciate and treat one another better.

I never thought that I would say this one day.. but I’ll be miserable without you and you’ve already became a part of me.
As in A PART NOT APART
I’ll definitely not be able to handle being alone, without you.
You’ve been there, ALL THE TIME.
Its hard to even think about what will happen if its all over.
No more you always being there for me 24/7, protecting me, killing roaches for me, treating and providing me like a queen.
I can’t and I don’t want any of these to end.

Love you baby.
Many more months/years to come!

With love.

4 Pictures for our special number FOUR.
So I was reading back my old posts and TEN months ago, we were 5 months old. Ten months later, we’re 1 year 3 months, 15 months old and still going strong. We had our fair share of fight, arguments and quarrels but i’m glad we’ve come this far together. You’ve really been a really awesome and understanding boyfriend. I really don’t think I can find someone else better than you and I dont want to. I love you baby, thank you for everything you’ve done for me. You’re so cute its insane! For a big size guy like you, you look NOTHING like that! Talking about zzz monster attacking you, how you lost and won as if its like a game! Only you can think of such things baby!

Best boyfriend award to you!
Love you.

So its been my second shoot with clothesbakery now and honestly, i hope for more. The money’s really good and if time and energy allows, i dont mind slogging my ass out, earning more money.

Well, money might not be everything but if you know me well enough, things back at home arent a bed of roses. Its pretty bad, financially and everything else. And if its within my capability, I would rather not get allowance or money from the mom unless I really need to.

I wish I was pretty and rich.

Last wed was going back to Fairfield to sign up as relief teacher with Abi and Sarah then met Jocelyn and Shiqi in town.
> Headed to Butterfac. ( Get stamp, go in come out )
> Then to Arena for free flow of drinks. ( Omg, the live band that was playing was damn bad. After they were done, we stayed for while more )
> MOS. ( It was so so so much better witht he crowd and music )

Its been awhile since I last clubbed. I had fun : )

Arena.

LOL at th couple behind !

The bartender was SUPER rude, he just took it away while i was taking picture.
Asshole !

If you can see.

MOS.

Thusday was breakfast at my house downstairs with Ilena & Uncle Alvin, picked Amos up and we were suppose to go up and wait for Amos to finish showering then my mom called.
Mom: ” Where are you ! The singtel people DOWNSTAIRS already ! “
Me: “HUH, okayokay ! I’m at ilena house downstairs, I’m coming back now !”

When I reached home..
Me: “Where are they i’m back home alr.”
Mom: “Oh, so fast ah? They’re ON THE WAY !”

Downstairs to on the way??? I felt so bad cos Ilena and her dad were so hungry !
We finally headed to Vivo’s Marche to have lunch/dinner.
& finally Ben came : ))))))) Poor boy, he’s so skinny now.
Thursday, Friday, Saturday and Sunday was major pigging out session.
Omg, i was so full t the max during these few days.
Alot of fun : DDDDD
Friday was Zouk finally like after I dont know how long.
& todayyyy I slept in till like 5plus.

HAHAHHA !!

7-11, its a store and more.


ID Photosssss.

Fish & Co.

Home : ))))

Alright, i’m gonna nap now.
Meeting Jocelyn & Shiqi later. : )

DLE exam was managable, fairly easy but well, definitely moderation so yeap  : )
Then Sakae with Joce, Shiqi & Char at Westmall after exam.
Alright, damn lazy, see pictures k bye.
I need to work, no money alr !

To sam. I think she’d still love balloons even till she turns old.

Happy 18th !

I like a act cool only.

Girls. (Maye, Gorgeous birthdy girl, Ilena, Jingyi, Candice.)

Group photo without sam’s two guy friends that were wearing the same shirt coincidentally!
HAHAHAH.

Sisters.

LOL

Huiyi’s art.

My sister’s so skinny !

Cousins love.

Happy 18th bday, Seetoh Suying !

Chaos at home now : (